Absence

Hello lovely you reading this, you might have noticed that there was not much going on lately on this blog. I was very absent for several reasons. First of all in September I took a short vacay and spent one week in my beloved Spain. First vacation since forever due to this Corona madness that is unfortunately dictating our lives.

Also on a not so bright note, my mental health was not great in the past few weeks / months thanks to all this Corona crapola. what should I say, anxiety, tension, fear, depression - that is a strong cocktail of unwanted emotions not supporting your wellbeing. But here I am, slowly getting on my feet again working on my projects.

Projects, quick update here; while I was absent I dove deep into working on the backend of my Shopify shop website and I will finally (after so many years but better late than never) launch the shop on Saturday the 18th of December. Can you believe that it is finally happening? Well, progress not perfection is my new motto to live by! So don’t expect anything perfect! So far I will launch only with one product but better launch now than never! Be prepared to find lots of ‘empty shop windows’ while I am working on adding more product to the one currently existing. My goal is to launch another product every 2-4 weeks, it is my shop baby and a never ending project to challenge my creativity on a daily basis.

I am proud of myself for what I have done in November; I bought a Shopify template after I realised that this is what I need in order to get the shop look that I want. Also I got an email for the shop with a business domain through ProtonMail (hello privacy, I value you and it hurts my soul to see how Corona is used to destroy our privacy and freedom on a constant basis). What I just mentioned leads to another topic I am burning for, current politics - this is the root cause of my depression and anxiety and panic attacks. I won’t keep my mouth shut anymore and I don’t give a f*** if people will label me as a crazy tin-foil hat conspiracy theorist from now on because let’s face it, everything that the so-called conspiracy theorists predicted has happened. And to quote Ed Snowden “it’s conspiracies in plain sight’, they are not even hiding it anymore.

I don’t want to use this blog to talk about politics because here the topics are design, mental health, goal setting, self-development and I feel that politics just does not fit in - so for that reason I want to start writing on Substack about politics and maybe also include all of the other things I care about and normally write about. I tried Steady for but for some reason I don’t warm up with that platform, so I will give Substack a try. Probably because I don’t follow anyone on Steady while on Substack I do.

Also I want to start a newsletter for the shop, are you interested in receiving a beautiful newsletter from me? Is it something you care about? Please let me know what you think. Apparently I want to dive deep into writing more I just realise with so many writing projects to come; the blog here, a Substack blog and a newsletter. But writing is food for the soul in my opinion, same goes for drawing, cooking and baking, working out, spending time in nature. There are many good ways to nourish your soul and that is exactly what you need - especially in dark and hard times like the ones we are currently going through. But I see light at the end of the tunnel, there always is some kind of light and a miracle waiting for us. We just may not remain in fear since this is the lowest vibration that keeps us stuck. So, leveling up to feeling anger is already a big progress because that feeling generates energy and then joy can follow.

I have to get out of stuck overthinking things like the shop, creating products, newsletter, writing about politics gone wrong on Substack - instead I just have to start doing and when being in the making mode new ideas, concepts, income streams, connections and so on can come up and that’s where the progress kicks in. Doing nothing and stagnating is the worst you can do and unfortunately that’s how my December looked like so far - for my defence I have to say that I have been sick pretty much since the beginning of December, so that might explain why I could not perform the way I planned. I am still not back to feeling 100% again but I feel much better than one week ago at least. Hey, my voice is back and I can talk again!

That’s it from me for now and I promise I won’t go another 3 months without blogging from now on! Truth is I missed blogging a lot as well!

Lots of love,

Phyllis