January Depression
It has been quiet on the blog lately you might have noticed. But why you might ask since I normally blog quite regularly? Well, I was busy working a lot and I fell into a deep hole of not feeling well emotionally in the past few weeks. therefore it had been so quiet here. I realised that this happens every year in January that I fall into a hole of being depressed, usually it happens around my birthday and this year it had not been any different.
I think many people suffer from being depressed in January and February. It is not a surprise, the Christmas and New Year’s Eve excitement is over and all that is left is darkness and cold. When you are like me and the lack of light and sunshine makes you feel sad, then welcome on board of the January Depression.
It took me a long time to get myself motivated to do something creative for the blog. Even though I have said a million times, that I want to do more drawing and illustrating, now I went back into my comfort zone of collage making because even when I feel a bit sad and uninspired, creating a collage always gets my creative juices back to flowing, cheers me up and it kind of has a meditating and soothing effect on me to figure out how to make the collage, cropping and retouching the images that I am using for creating my collage…so last night I was retouching the images and in the morning I finally created the collage. Now my plan is to do that more often in the evenings, retouching images while drinking one or two glasses of wine, getting the images ready for creating the collages and blog posts after a good night of sleep in the morning when I feel more energetic and creative again. And I’ll get back to drawing and illustrating once the days have more light and are longer because light is important for this kind of creative work. Also creating collages is one of my specialties, so why should i limit myself here then.
Also I am trying to figure out my goals for the next 11 months now that January is almost over;
opening the shop soon, I don’t know why there is so much fear holding me back for being honest
sticking to my goals, redefining new goals
saving money to move to Spain again
working on myself to better myself, shifting my mindset, self-development is key to move forward and to keep moving
not letting fear hold me back from doing what I really want to do
being more creative, more blogging, more collage making, more drawing and illustrating
learning jewelry design once I opened the shop
traveling again, I miss it so much
no more people-pleasing
focusing on myself and only on myself, not on anyone else. This is not egoism, it’s essential to create the life that I want to live
better self-care and more self-love
So, here I am trying to figure out how to beat the January Blues. Also I realised, as much as I love my apartment and my current job, it is not what I want to be doing for the next few years. If I want to grow spiritually, professionally I have to leave my comfort zone and level up. I have to move to a place that bring me more joy and sunshine than Germany does, I need a bigger apartment that has enough space and light that I can set up my own creative studio and I just have to level up in every aspect otherwise I stay in what I now call my comfort zone but as we know, great things never grow from comfort zones! So, here we go - I have to put my focus on my goals and give myself permission to achieve a lot of them within the next 12 months.
