I have been thinking a lot about rejection lately. For being honest, it is one of the feelings very hard to cope with for me. I really struggle a lot and fall in a deep hole full of self-doubt and feeling unworthy whenever I experience rejection and believe me, I have experienced a lot of rejection in my life. Maybe I should change my perspective towards rejection and instead of fearing rejection I should just try to be more relaxed about it. Just this week I experienced being rejected once again which actually made me think about it and to realise how much I struggle with this feeling.
So, on Monday I applied to open a Creative Market shop and received the rejection email a few hours later. So apparently for Creative Market my work is not good enough and not inline with what they offer. I was so sad reading this and felt like a loser for even applying there believing straight away that my work is total shit and that I will never reach my goals and never make it to establish myself. Then I decided to just open an Etsy shop instead which might be even better for me because there I can also sell physical goods and get super creative. It is my dream to design jewelry as well and on Etsy I can sell that once I got started, same goes for prints and posters, another thing Creative Market does not offer since everything there is just digital. So maybe this rejection was for the better because starting an Etsy shop is a much better challenge for my creativity and to improve my skills because the product range I can offer there is much bigger. Possibly some rejections happen for a good reason because then the Universe offers you something better instead than what would have been the case if you were not rejected. And looking at rejection this way completely changes your perspective and feelings about it, right?!
I feel that I am still very often led by fear and this is holding me back. Especially this week I feel how dominant the feeling of fear is pretty much concerning every aspect of my life. It was better in the past few months but now this dominant feeling of fear is back. I guess it is just a reminder that I have to work on this and do a lot of inner work here in order to let go of fear and to choose love instead like Gabby Bernstein writes in her books, that we should choose love over fear and then miracles can happen. So this is my lesson for now and I have to go back into reading a lot and doing the inner work in order to get rid of all the mindset blocks that are currently holding me back again. Once I let go of fear, pretty much everything is possible. But it takes time and courage to get there. Writing this I just realise how dependent fear and rejection are. Once you get rid of the fear then the fear of rejection will be gone as well. It is a circle you constantly have to work your way through.
Have you ever looked at what feeling rejected does to you and what you can do to not suffer from this feeling anymore? I will focus on all my projects, my Etsy shop and to create beautiful goodies for the shop as soon as I have the time and that should help to let go of feeling fear and rejection. But I have to admit that I really struggle a lot this week and that it is very hard for me to look at a bright future. Maybe it is because I feel stressed, maybe it is hormonal. I don't know what exactly is going on, I just really hope that I am more relaxed and optimistic again in a few days than I am at this moment.